I was doing what I hated. Working a job that forced me into a pit of hell and I had no idea how to get out.
I was going to sleep around 1:30 AM every night and waking up around 5:30 AM for this soul sucking job “Scotts Lawn Service.” I went to bed and I knew that at 7:30 I was going to be spraying fertilizer and weed killer onto lawns.
When the day came to a close I tried to run out but my boss would stop me everyday right before I was about to head out to freedom. Butch had a Gnome like face and a Teddy Bears body. His main objective in life was about hitting high sales numbers and didn’t give a flying f^*k if an employee was sick, had a death in the family or had a mental illness.
In a deep growley voice “Logan, what kind of numbers did you bring in?” Like a trained dog who was waiting for his master to acknowledge him I replied “About 1300.” “KEEP IT UP KID! That’s real real good!” He said. I’ll admit it, it felt good to get some praise. Even if the praise was for doing something I hated.
I heard a gentlemen at the bar say “The real heroes of this country work jobs they hate!” I actually believed this to be true. I stuck with that job for 6 months until. I thought that it was normal for everyone to work a job they hated so they could do the stuff they loved. I was doomed.
“What am I going to do with my life?!?!?”
As much as I hated saying this to myself but I saw the people in my family all work in occupations they hated.
I picked up a book that saved my life. “On Acting by Sandford Meisner.”
When I was 8 I loved making my Mom laugh.
When I was 9 I loved making my Mom proud by being in the school play.
When I was 10 I loved watching cartoons every Saturday morning with my Mom. Pretending to be Spider man was my bliss.
When I was 11 I loved Snowboarding.
When I was 12 I loved baseball.
When I was 13 I loved Motocross.
When I was 14 I still loved Motocross and watching Spideman cartoons.
When I was 15 I found myself trying to skip school because I hated homework.
When I was 16 I loved Snowboarding, skipping school, watching Dragon Ball Z and doing bad kid activities. I say this with a shame but I liked (Smoking, stealing candy, car hopping and drinking).
When I was 17 I started to lose my passion for Snowboarding and I got into working out. What can I say? I wanted to look like Goku or Spider-Man.
When I was 18 I loved a girl. She didn’t know it yet.
When I was 19 I loved making people laugh. It was especially amazing when I made “her” laugh.
When I was 20 I loved working out, watching movies, and rewatching Dragon Ball z.
I watched a movie called “Finding Neverland” with Johnny Depp. SPOILER ALERT: At the end of the movie Freddie Highmores character is grieving over his recently deceased mother. With eyes full of tears he says “It’s just that I always thought she’d be here.” “So deed I?” Johnny Depps character replied with an Irish accent. Johnny Depp tenderly removes the book from Freddie Highmores hands and says “In fact, she still lives in every single one of these pages by living inside your imagination.” Ninja Onions came out from hiding and I begin to weep for the next 3 hours.
When men and women cry and become truly moved it’s a good indicator that whatever it is that moves you is the very thing you should be doing with your life.
I fell in love with the idea of being an actor. I read my first book “On Acting by Sandford Meisner” while riding the stationary bike at the gym.
The next week I put in my two weeks notice and planned to become an actor.
This is my cheat sheet to finding what you love.
1: List all the things you loved doing from the ages 8 to 20.
2:These aren’t your “true passions”.
That’s a made up phrase. These were simply the things you loved doing as a kid.
3: COMBINE THEM. If you loved computers and movies, maybe you will write stories for games or virtual reality.
4: Age them: What do adults do when they love movies for money? They make them. Write reviews on them. Learn how to be in them.
5: Finally get yourself around people who are doing what you want to right away!!!! Don’t wait. If you calculate this move for too long you may never do it.
There is no one true passion. There are just these basic guidelines:
- Look to your past to discover your future.
- You will do MANY things in your life. There is no “one” thing.
- Combine combine combine.
When you’re in a place of having absolutely no idea what you are going to do?!? STEAL!!! Seriously. Steal. Become a super fan of something. If you love reading and you want to learn how to write. Write your first book by copying your favorite authors words. If you love Halo. Learn the process of how they made Halo. If you love watching actors. Commit yourself to learning how to do impressions of your favorite actors. If you love anything at all- please spend at least 5 minutes a day trying to get better at that activity.